Thursday, October 8, 2015
#Publishing A #Novel: What To Do When The Future Is Behind You
This is unexpected, friends.
It's not that I am light on understanding the temporal and linear nature of the physics of time, or anything; it is, instead, that I am just so used to looking forward for glory, not backward.
It's all a bit disturbing to realize the thing I have toiled over has already come to fruition, had a lovely day in the glare of media attention, been read by several people in the world, and is now a thing, separate from me, and in my past.
I need to look forward to something new. I am writing the memoir, but it's different--maybe just knowing that another book will not be the magic answer to all my human woes makes it so. I invested so much shiny hope into the novel; I believed so whole-heartedly that it would change my life once and for all!
But no one ever tells you about the year after you publish your first novel. No one ever tells you that seeing the light of your first novel getting published will bring you to a sad realization. And the realization is that there is no actual "it" just around the corner that's going to change who you are and how fantastic your life is. Publishing a novel won't do it, nor will all the fame and fortune in the literary world. (And I'm guessing here based on a tiny, tiny taste.) Nothing does that. So you might as well get right with yourself as you are.
This is one of the many secret they don't tell you.
But I will tell you, oh rodents, because here I am, living proof that I am still I, still here, still the same with all the same issues and problems.
I find this realization both comforting and depressing. I also know that you will not listen to me until you have gone through the experience yourself. But when you get there, I hope, at least, you'll be a little more prepared for this cold splash of water in the face than I was.
Peace out, for now.